Friday, January 29, 2016

Tittle's Day Recap

Tittle's Day was harder this year, I think because it seemed to be just like a regular day. With Gus and Lucy, we get to do special things on their days, because they're here. On our angel's days, we still have regular life to deal with, and that's makes it feel like they are getting ignored.

Monday, January 25, 2016

Tittle's Day

6 years ago we learned that our third child would not be coming home. We saw on ultrasound that our Tittle's heart had stopped beating. For how many smiles his sneaky ways bring us throughout the year, this day is still hard and full of wonder. I wonder what he would look like, what his interests would be and in what ways he would surprise us.

Saturday, January 16, 2016

Post-Holiday Recap

Well, I got through Christmas, New Year's Eve and Oscar's and Bella's due date. We are now back in the swing of our regular schedule with school and our "regular" activities, but I thought it important to give a recap of our holidays.

Sunday, December 20, 2015

Feeling Deflated for Christmas

I can't believe it's Christmas already. I've commented to several people that there is no festivity in our house. I've been thinking that it's due to not putting up our big tree (trying to protect it from Lucy), but now I'm thinking that maybe that's not the total story.

Saturday, November 21, 2015

Breastfeeding is done

Yesterday Lucy nursed for the very last time. I know it hasn't fully hit me yet, so I know that there will be tears in the future about this, I'm sure. I just can't believe we're done.

Saturday, November 14, 2015

1st Grade Trial Week

The first week of November, Gus attended first grade for his trial week. By Wednesday, Jon and I knew what our decision would be.

Thursday, October 29, 2015

Thursday, October 22, 2015

1st Grade

This year, Oscar and Bella would have started 1st grade. On November 2, Gus will do a trial run of 1st grade for four days. I'm an emotional mess.

Monday, October 19, 2015

We almost have a tail!

Way back in April or May I offered to sew Gus' Halloween costume, or we could go with a store-bought costume. He chose to have me sew him one, and he chose a black dragon with red spines. I found a pattern, bought it and then sat with it, not starting the project until September. Now, it's 9 days from when it needs to be done and I'm so far behind. I've already come to terms that I'm not going to do the mittens or feet, and probably not the hood. All I want to do is get the jumpsuit done, and hope that he's happy with it. Well, last night I almost finished step #2: the tail. Step one was putting the zipper in the front of the costume. Step 2 is the tail. Still have a lot to do, but hope that I can get it done for him. I think I'm going to have a lot of late nights trying to finish this costume, but it's my own fault. *sigh*

Thursday, October 15, 2015


Today is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. Tonight at 7pm, Jon and I will light candles in memory of Oscar, Bella, Tittle and Firefly. Today Lucy wore tights for the first time.